1st Round, 2nd Round, 3rd....

1st round of treatment was a TKO (Total knockout for the non-boxing enthusiast), 2nd round was a KO (just a knockout). So that means the side effects in round two were slightly better than the first, I just regurgitated more. Today, actually last Thursday at this point (and now it's Tuesday of my off week). I had my 3rd round and it is yet to be determined. I feel like I am in a better mental state for now, I hope that continues.3rd Round could be the best one yet. I had very little nausea, but I also was on a pretty rigours routine with medications waking up all hours of the night, so I wouldn't miss one. I also had to get fluids, Friday, Saturday, and Monday and they gave me a shot of steroids somewhere along the lines. I will definitely take this round over being sick so many days. I did sleep most all weekend long. Sometimes this worries me because than I wonder if I am eating and drinking enough, but at this time, the more I can sleep these days away, maybe the faster they will go away. This brings me to how I feel right now, the day before a short treatment. Yikes....
I am back to that restless feeling. I would like to try to take a nap, a few days ago I couldn't stay awake. Now, I lay down for 5 minutes and I am wondering what to do. I have tried puzzles, coloring, playing video games, cleaning the house, the list goes on. Those activities seem to work for another 5 minutes, but than it's like I have to do something else. So, I will try and lay down again...nope. Siting and watching the time pass on the clock does me no good. Pacing back in forth from the kitchen to the living room just wares the floor out. It's hard being home by yourself when you are in this state. But, even when someone is with me, we don't talk much. Talking takes energy and because I can't lay and rest you would think I would have plenty of energy, but I really don't. The other thing that is getting to me this round it the more light headedness and blackout feelings I have been getting. I have made calls to the docs and nurses, because I go into tomorrow no one is too concerned about it. It's just part of the medicine. After tomorrow's treatment, I will be half way done. Some people say that's just right around the corner, I beg to differ. I am trying to keep that positive light lit, but this treatment stuff.....can kiss my a$$!
Turns out the lightheadness was me being dehydrated. My one hour treatment turned into a 3 hour treatment because I got even more fluids pumped in me, this made me sick. I got the lecture on how important it is to drink especially after treatments. This is something I know. I am not a big drinker on average. It is incredibly hard to drink anything when you aren't thirsty, you feel crappy, and you don't want to think about putting anything else in your body. Some people seem to think it's so easy, if it were, I would do it.
I am now trying to enjoy my off week and so far it's been somewhat difficult. I am now struggling with bottom issues which I will spare all details, but I will say one word....OUCH. This is going to be something I will have to deal with until the end of treatment and than will probably have to have it surgically repaired.
I feel like the last few posts have been somewhat negative and I apologize for that. I really try hard to stay positive,  but again, it's not easy. I still get scared sometimes. .....